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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 09:09

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

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Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Can I see some anal hole?

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I was scared of men, in general

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

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I don,t even have a pension.

I will be 64.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Why doesn’t the UK change their flag?

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

We all went to grammer schools

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As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Why do I sweat between my legs all the time, top off my legs, all way down?

I could never make a relationship work though!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

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But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Do you wear tights for warmth or to make your legs look better?

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

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Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

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He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

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Thats was my nicest nick name for him

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

When she asked me how she looked .

I waited trembling.

He resisted the act ,that day.

It was going to be , some day.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

She married twice! .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

He knew the spot.

Would this be the day?

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

And i lived it daily.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I had hoped to write a book about this .

One cannot live in the past .

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

She loved him until the end.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

She wouldn,t have been !

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I was seconnd youngest,

She was in good health!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I write beautiful poetry .

My life is so biszare .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Ive learnt so much.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

So, i spoilt her more .

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

So whats the point in blame.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Put me off passion for life!!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

This is soul school!.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

But it wasn’t much.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I think the readers, may guess!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I never cut or harmed myself..

But ive been too sick for many years..

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Comes on , in middle age.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

We were not on the streets..

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Especially a lifetime of it.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I was very sick at this time too.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

All the time i was locked up.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I said to her

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Why did i forgive my father ?

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

My family never makes their pension either.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

What did i know ?

Im still living with it.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

She found it foreign!.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I was 9 years of age.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I have no regrets .

Who then, do I blame.?

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

But, we were locked up after school.

As i do to all so called friends.?

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.